Monday, August 4, 2008
I should know better.
Having married a man who loves the outdoors, I should know better when he says, "Let's go on a hike today." In my mind, I am thinking, maybe a 20 minute hike or so & it will be easy, no biggie. But, we get out there & he's got the map out, he's planned out a trek that might push us, but not kill us or at least not totally & then about halfway through he looks at me, I guess my face doesn't tell lies very well, and he asks, "So, how much further can we go?" He's asking permission on setting the challenge level & I realize what I've gotten myself into. I say, "No more than what we just did 3 times in a row." I'm horrible at mileage or directions, heaven forbid I ever get lost in the woods by myself. I've got a baby on my back, although she is the lighter load, but she's the louder one & she is grunting FOR me. At one point, I actually ask her to be quiet because the noises she is making are the ones I want to make, but I'm trying to keep my smile plastered on, although the sweat is dripping into my eyes & I can feel my shirt starting to stick to me & Daphne's grunting is making it even clearer how I really feel about this hike!!! I'm not mad at Mark, I'm mad at myself, for not being in better shape, for not being able to push away the crankiness, but I swear I am doing all I can to show I'm happy & show that I'm enjoying myself. So, we arrive back at the car, almost drained of our water supply because the kids are the furthest thing from camels & I cannot wait to get somewhere where I can just sit & relax & rest, so we take the kids to the creek to play & I put the babies in the playpen & enjoy some resting time & we get home & I am still totally pooped! So, we sneak in a nap with the babies & when I wake up, I am still exhausted. Originally, my idea for today was to go on a small hike, enjoy some time with the kids & then later that night go out by myself to eat somewhere, do a little shopping, just be by myself after almost a month with no hubby to help with the clan & I find that after the time well spent with family & my husband's idea of a hike, I am far too tired to even entertain myself. I should know better. But I still LOVE YOU HONEY & I'd go hiking across America if only to be with YOU!!!